I just read my Streams in the Desert devotional this morning. We had a very trying, challenging morning with one of our children. So, when I read the devotional I wasn't ready for what it said. I was to continue to trust God even when the future doesn't seem so bright, when fear would feel like a more logical response than faith. Then, at the end of the devotional I had to gulp. Because, my faith is really based on what I believe about the God I call my Savior. God keeps bringing me around to this subject of Trust. I have put my trust in this invisible God to pay my sin debt and freely give me eternal life. So, why is everyday living out this principle of Trust so tough?? Maybe because eternity is some abstract time in place that will happen "someday".Perhaps believing for one day is easier than just believing God today. Am I really believing God is holding my future in His Hands? Do I know Jeremiah 29:11, "I know the plans I have for you, to give you hope and a future" or is it just a quote that sounds like a good life verse about trust. I am an "authenticity" addict. I don't like "boxed" foods, I prefer the "real" food, that is homemade. I don't own a lot of "knock off" material things. I figure why pretend to have something you can't afford. The only thing I am okay with is costume jewelry. I can't afford real jewels so luckily the look alike costume stuff is actually quite savvy. So, when it comes to living out my faith, I am very black and white in my thinking. I am either walking with the Lord spending time in His presence or not. I can't stand that lukewarm place when I am playing "godliness" but really dissing God daily. I figure it's pretty obvious to most when I have strayed. I have been a believer from a young age and I can act pretty spiritual when needed but God knows even if no one else knows and that is really the whole point!
If I have put my God in a compartment of my life that makes me feel comfortable, then He will only be as big as the compartment I created for him. Gratefully, our infinite God can't be hedged in! My faith will be only as small or as infinite as the God I serve. I questioned this morning whether God really was able to exist outside of my immediate needs. Will he really carry me? Does He have my future securely in His hands. I am choosing to trust that my Incredible God is bigger than my, in comparison, small problem du jour. His ways are not my ways. His mercies are new every morning, and He can do more than I can imagine, think or dream. All He asks is, when my world is crumbling apart, that I remember He is and always will be in control. Not only of my life, but bigger than that, the universe!
You can say, "Ouch or Amen" with me.
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